Wednesday, April 16, 2008


I miss you. We were at Grandma and Papa's house this last week, and it seemed like no matter where I went, all I could think of was you. It was a bitter/sweet thing. On one hand, it was hard to be hit with a lot of emotion, especially since I wasn't anxious to have anybody there see me cry, so I was holding it all in, but on the other hand, after it hit me a few times, I went around looking for things that brought back memories because it helped me feel closer to you and remember you better! One of my biggest struggles right now is that I have a hard time actually remembering you. I can recall pictures that I have, and even home video, but I'm not remembering those actual incidents. At the house the other day, I was actually remembering you and some things you actually did and real experiences! It makes me miss you so much! Your dad was saying just last night that it would have been fun to see you and Isaac play and wrestle together! I know you would have loved having a brother, especially since you two have so much in common. Isaac loves balls, and so did you! I know you watch out for your siblings, and at least we get to have that knowledge to help ease the pain of not having you here where we can see you! Love you!